“I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day” is my mom’s favorite Christmas song. Ever since I was little, I would get excited if I saw that song on the program for church because I knew my mom loved it. I have even been known to call my mom from Sacrament meeting to have her hear it when we were in different wards.
There are certain events that happen in life and you think, “I’ll never look at the world the same.” I felt this way after September 11, after my grandpa died, after the shooting at Trolley Square, etc. Friday was one of those days. I felt sick to my stomach as I heard the news come in about the shooting in Connecticut. All these beautiful children, killed along with 6 adults. I cried and cried. I just kept thinking about how terrible it would be to have been there, to have lost your child, or anyone else from this terrible event. How scared everyone must have felt.
It also made me think about how the world has become so bad. How are there people in the world who could do something so terrible? And to little children? Why? How will I be able to send my children to school? How can I go to the movies or the mall without being worried. Maybe I’ll just stay inside my home with my family and never leave…
Then my mom’s favorite song came to mind and these lyrics:
“And in despair I bowed my head;
“There is no peace on earth,” I said;
“For hate is strong,
And mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!”
Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
“God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;
The wrong shall fail,
The right prevail,
With peace on earth, good-will to men.”
There is good on the earth too. This is evident even in this terrible tragedy. The stories of heroism from the staff at the school and how people are giving such an outpouring of love to those affected just shows that there is still more good in the world than bad.
I hope and pray that my children can live in this world in safety. I want them to live happy lives and not live in fear. I trust God and know that He is always with us. I’m praying for the people in CT.